you dont know

i just wanted you to know
a few things before i go
when he came to my room i was asleep
didn't wake up until he was on top of me
I was given sleeping pills and when i tried i couldn't scream
then he was gone and i cried myself to sleep
you called me a liar, didn't believe
i was left alone to grieve
he stole my virginity
two weeks before i turned thirteen
now i'm the one you blame for everything
and i just want to end the suffering
i feel like i'm falling off the edge of a nightmare
and this mask is starting to tear
you say i am pitiful
but you are being cruel
i never asked for any of this shit
and you don't even know the half of it