Lies of Joy

I fight battles I know I cannot win
Demons flood my mind through the stress
Knifes of past mistakes start to twist
Reminding me the trouble I'm getting in
I'll never get my piece, happiness is a lie
I can try, but nothing I do can change
Now or never, becoming the latter

Life is hopeless with all this stress
My dreams are dying under my nose
I hesitated to let the dead memories go
My biggest mistake was to even try
Making my life harder by the minute
Looking for something that doesn't exist
So when it's over, dead or alive
I'll look back at my life and be happy by the fact
I will die.