Fake Smiles

I sit in tears,
I sit in pain,
My ears are filled with the sound of music
The sound of love and desperation
The sound of sadness and cruelty.
It’s the only thing that can keep me here,
Keep me in my body,
Keep my soul from escaping to another world.
I could leave,
But it would only leave tears
It would only leave sorrow.
I keep suffering for them,
So the ones I love won’t,
So the ones I love will be happy.
And maybe it’s best for everyone,
It’s best for everyone to be happy,
It’s best for everyone to succeed,
Even if I can’t.
So I keep crying at night,
I keep putting on a fake smile during the day,
Even if I’m crumbling on the inside.