AN ATEMPORAL STANCE REGAINED  (11-12-17, 5:30pm, Cathedral City ‘Cove’, California)

     
     
in the      
scorching presence      
and merciless      
attack      
of such sudden      
hair triggered      
sociopathic behaviors      
youve too      
frequently      
hurled at me      
over these last      
three long years      
and the utter      
maddening insanity      
of whatever godless      
impunity      
apparently shields      
you from      
any sense of      
responsibility      
or penalty      
for any resultant      
negative consequences      
thereof      
just know this      
ive now learned      
the hard way      
to preresolve      
in my mind  
at least    
every time you      
come anywhere      
near me      
to not let      
the toxic vibes      
of your personal      
inner pestilence      
your true selfs
extreme  
narcissistic nature  
should you or      
whenever you might      
next explode      
and violently hurl      
them at me      
to ever so      
rattle  unravel      
nor render me      
again      
so shaken      
unsettled      
so painfully      
diminished      
so desperately  
defensive
emotionally broken        
falsely defeated      
nor so helplessly      
hopelessly      
completely undone    
but rather now
i choose
to not let it
get into
nor through me
by mirroring it
all back
deflectively to you
by simply telling
myself
that this is
your dark
mental illness
not mine
for now i      
cleave onto
to keep      
and wear around      
myself      
a higher auric      
field of light      
within this      
even greater shield      
ive now reclaimed      
to help protect      
and better bolster      
my hyper sensitive      
inner natures    
deepest core truth    
this invisible shield      
whose only power      
is my reawakened      
conscious awareness      
of this higher      
truths realized path    
i frequently try    
to remind    
myself of    
and not only    
ascribe to    
but consciously    
strive    
to live    
and be    
of egoless self      
of selfless self      
which in truth      
ultimately      
atemporarally      
at least      
i know      
i am      
beyond this    
lower consciousness  vibe    
you seem    
so hell bent    
on keeping me  
so physically  
financially  
oppressively  
inescapably submerged  
and confined in    
which can only      
passively transmute  you      
and whatever else
you might ever      
suddenly try      
to assault      
me with again      
all rendered  
and mirrored  
back into you  
subconsciously  
and karmically  
at least  
i hope  
for the sake  
of your own  
souls growth  
ever closer      
to that illusory      
ground of being      
in whose myth  
you so tragically    
choose  
to egoically live  
and cling  
so blindly onto      
to cleave so      
desperately to      
back to that      
meaningless    
hellish void      
you perceive as      
everything      
back to      
that ground      
of empty  useless      
souless dust      
youve so sadly      
chosen      
with your own      
free will      
to make    
your one    
lost faiths  
false god    
which is the      
only faith      
youve ever had      
or held      
in anything      
this time around      
in your blinded      
souls external journey      
through this      
experiential      
yet only transitory      
fleetingly      
temporal      
world