joyrides

i'm sick of screaming,
i just wanna get along,
can’t kill my head anymore
can’t make Heaven last long
i think i’m gonna be God’s whore
i think i’m gonna drown down here
my bones will disappear into the back
of a classroom--the Midwest’s my puppeteer, my mind’s
about to go boom

i’m on the inside
i’m the mouth that lied, hands that tried, brain that died
i’m sitting within our late night joyrides forever
forever the smoke lingers in backyard summers
i’m at your funeral five years from now
hit me like a bullet, drop a bomb by the grace of God somehow
never knew, yell till i come to

let our voices collide one more time--everything go back to how
it used to be--i’m getting older than i wanna be  
TV’s sedating me
i’m never gonna fucking see
the world crashing down around me

you’re not making sense, ingesting ten more pills
i’ve got a heavy, sinking feeling in my chest
gonna play some cheap thrills, pretend everything’s fine
till my heart falls out, i hate you and i whine
time keeps slipping by and all i do is sit
talking doesn’t work--i’m not gonna make it
the sun’s between my legs--i don’t want him to break dawn
let me sleep till my body’s gone.