The Absence

What then ? ..
What's after the slaughter within?
Am i now supposed to survive ?
But only human is what I am ..
A human who's buried alive ..
Shall i live seeing you in every face?
And burn for the rest of my life?
"stay strong" .. "move on" ..
"it's always the same" ..
But how the fire would burn out ..
When every passing day is feeding the flames ..
When all i have is my weakness ..
My shame ..

And You ..
You gave it up , walked away ..
So easily you forgot ..
The love in which you melt one day ..
The man you used to mess..
The arms ..
In which you used to be helpless ..
So strange! ..
How easily you change ..
Till this moment i can not believe ..
That this is just it ..
That you just came to leave ..

So strange! ..
Is that kind of love inside ..
Makes me weep for longing ..for missing ..
But left no tears to weep for the hurt pride ..

Now i'm moving on ..
Whith a head up high ..
But my heart is down to the ground ..
Looking for what's lost ..
But what is found ..
Is only wasted years ..
Spoiled memories ..
And deadly shame to say it loud ..
To say it on my knees ..
I love you still ..