i need help

i seriously need help i do i get up and fix breakfast for a man that if the food looks weird to him he takes me to the basement and beats me into a bloody pulp and then tells me that next time it better be steam coming off the food so it looks hot. I get up and go to the shower to feel good an clean and get back in the room to have my ass fucked hard and rough and then when it starts to bleed i get knocked out because he hates seeing blood or smelling it. Could you imagine me wanting to go the hospital because im bleeing so much that i fill up the toliet and im lightheaded and weak and i get my ass beat then sent to the hospital because he dont want me to leave him....... Do you know how long its been since i seen my mom and how she would feel if she seen my face and body she would have a heart attack...... my friends tell me all the time that im stupid for wanting to stay with a man that does that to me i could find better.... i feel like there is nothing better out there for me besides him i wake up to a man and i get the dick and i get someone to call bae im not lonely i dont want to be lonely thats what i tell them they say something is wrong with me..........

Am i crazy or am i under a spell i want to get away from him  but i just cant and when i do he always seems to find me and then things get worse for me and i get beaten and cant move or talk or eat for days at a time so whats wrong with me.  

My grandma said the last time she heard for me i sounded like someone had put me in a scary movie and was calling to ask for ransom to keep me alive so she could see me again and the sad part about the phone call with my grandma is that she was willing to give all she had just have me next to her again.
Is this love that is keeping me with this man or is it the fact that im just stupid or is it that i got use to the beatings and since him beating me is keeping him around and he dont leave me i just stay with him and let him keep doing it to me.
I NEED ADVICE WHAT SHOULD I DO???