Apologies

Our bed floating in a ocean of lies
The drowning sensation amplified
by no rest with a icy pain in my chest
Nothing left but death
and her soft voice in my head
saying, “I’m sorry.”
sorry, sorry, sorry
Apologies driving me insane
A dream, but I'm not dreaming
Sleep paralysis, but I'm not sleeping
Holding me under with suffocating lies
The truth is something I always let die
because without you there’s no life
but with you I'm not living
I’ll learn to swim and you can drown
i’m sorry