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ONE WAY ONLY CHOICE AGAIN (1-24-09, 9:00am, Palm Springs, California)
here i am
standing at
the very edge
of one way
only
choice again
aware
im spiritually
evolved enough
to choose
to move
at this point
in my life
more fully into
this light
this higher truth
i know
beyond its
precarious precipice
if i want
though somehow
still here now
it seems
as if
some unfulfilled
long hungering
other
suppressed
inner part
of me
whether more
of ego
mind or soul
still clings
so stubbornly on
to every heated
big or little
scarlet
beck and calls
seemingly
never ending
distractions
persistent demands
for still yet
more and more
of me
this me
whoever ive now
become
whether just another
insatiable pound
of overly eager
willing flesh
or only one
more consequential
superficially wasted drop
of its deeper
forlorn essence
willing to be
spilled or spent
or even just
a single
addictive
primal molecule
perhaps
still yearning
in me here
from which
i faintly sense
some whispering subtle
still quiet
voice
within
is still not
quite ready enough
just yet
to more fully
commit
to this
long pressing
conscious choice
the larger part
of my
free will
feels so certain
it needs
and wants
and was almost
ready to make
or so
i thought
at least until
this sudden
unexpected
hesitant moment
of brief
uncertain doubt
came up again
just now
a voice
so vague
so distant
though just
compelling enough
to presently
make me
more keenly aware
of this persistently
stubborn
inner struggle
between my ego
versus
my spirits
frustratingly
silent quandary
still so clearly
ongoing here
presently
in my life
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