Hell

hell is not fire
hell is the front seat of a beat up gmc
hell is cigarette smoke lingering on your favorite jacket
hell is pen marks on wrists
hell is waking up at two am on a sunday morning
hell is pancakes cooking on a saturday
hell is hands that won't stop shaking
hell is a bottle of pills
hell is one in the morning
hell is the taste of cheap beer
hell is acid burning the back of your throat
hell is sunsets and skylines
hell is the radio that plays in the background
hell is the smell of chlorine and sunscreen
hell is the laughter of friends
hell is jokes you don't understand
hell is laughing along
hell is good days
hell is the feeling of hot pavement under your shoes
hell is the smell of diesel fumes
hell is lemonade
hell is paperback books
hell is fingers that trace old scars
hell is blades that make new ones
hell is going to sleep
hell is staying awake
hell is tv reruns
hell is the taste of koolaid and cheap cookies
hell is carpet burns
hell is hide and seek
hell is fireflies and fireworks competing
hell is streetlights reflected in the light of windows
hell is the hum of pop machines in the silence of a tuesday night
hell is the fluorescent glow of quick stops
hell is the feeling of being carried to bed
hell is being tucked in
hell is trying to be okay
hell is knowing you won't ever be