Grateful in grief

Belfast chille peppers
Was that just to prep us
for what was coming was truly tremendous,
Horrendous
I was the only one left to defend us
now there is no way to mend this

People broken everywhere, shit scared
there was no way to be prepared
They say a problem shared splits it in half
Not grief, it infects everyone , tears them down
and has the last long laugh

suddenly eveerything is cold, all joke are old, food is mould
while we all do our best not to give in and fold

Its hard to describe exactly what it feels like,You know something is not right
My brain races at night so I decide to write but I still feel like shite
And im not tryna moan and groan because problems, everyone has their own

I feel more peaceful when I see my thoughts on a page,
like letting  the demon out of its cage and given a stage to release some rage

Always grieving but this feels relieving, its hard percieving you leaving that evening, oh shit here comes the heaving but I still beieve in you out there achieving, decieving, thieving , it doesn’t  matter once your receiving , keep weaving your web of influence, its continous and even though it’s a mess I consider myself blessed for the 25 so I put you in ink and framed you on the chest.