Teeter

I sat and thought a while, so many things I could say. I wanted to get to core of what I want to tell you even tho you will never see this and don't really pay attention to my poetry. Its ok, this is my peace for the pain of us. I forgive you, forgive me. Live for me. My words could never express how I have loved you.  
 
I did need you, at a time that I was at my all time best.
I needed you to realize who you really were.
I didn't trust your heart in the hands of another
I knew I had to be there to help
 
I reached out my hand and heart
You came to fight and was your bag
I gave you everything I could give
In my pain, you laughed
 
I came from nothing
Poor, misunderstood
I thought you knew me more than anyone
You knew me for my good
 
Instead you bonded to my neck
Made me have doubts
Still, I stayed with you
Helping you out
 
I always saw you as beautiful
Told you everyday
I gave you more than a cheap thrill
I give you most of me, but you just turned it away
 
I worked for you
I came home to you
I gave you my every dime
 
Still, you gave yourself to another  
Followed another
Stripped me down every time
 
I tried to wake you up
Teach you to say no
Bitter as you were
 
Then you stand in front of me
Holding my years in your hands
Caused my every emotion to stir
 
Making me let you go.....
 
Starting over, now I see
I don't have much, but I still have me
I struggle and think about coming back
 
I miss everything I worked for  
But without love I have no use for this or that
 
I need something better
Someone I don't have to give all I have for them to heal
Seems so impossible
These days love doesn't seem real
 
I don't want a side girl
I don't want all of the money in the world
I don't want to be right all of the time
 
Just someone to share a laugh
Show my best to
Someone that truly wants to be mine
 
I don't hate you
My heart doesn't know how
Loving you made me not like myself
I have to love myself now
 
I hate feeling like a failure,
But sometimes we must fail
I love the sweetest of love stories
This time, it has to be a new story to tell
 
Its going to take everything
Everything
Everything for me to heal
I hope you do too
 
Its going to be hard for me
Not to reach my hand out to you
 
Don't be afraid
Fight like you fought me
It will work out sooner or later
Eventually
 
I can tell by the way you have been treating me
I know you want to cause me pain
We never should have stayed this long
 
Its my fault for holding so tight
I accept my wrongs
 
This is not what people in love do
I do however love
Trying to be gentle with you
 
While you
Stomp
Me
Out
 
Back and forth
 
Your teetering heart
 
Made mine like your's
Scared of everything
Enough, no more