Finish Line

 
I'm sorry
But I couldn't go on
Know this is unexpected
Even surprised myself
Thought I had a few more years left
I know it's hard and saying sorry won't really help
Besides I'm not going to lie
I didn't quit on life
My finish line just wasn't as far
Endings and beginnings
No two are the same
It's not selfish on my part
It's my life to call
Don't be angry at me and I promise everything will be ok

I admire how you live
You have my full respect
Stayed away from the trap
But always there with a hand when I fell in
I never planned on being controlled
By the time I seen it
The addiction was out of control
I didn't deserve you
More then that you never deserved what I put you through
But believe me I wanted to stop completely
Each relapse killed a part of me
I just hope I didn't completely shatter your heart
I pray that you love again
I beg that you feel loved again

Don't fight moving on
Let me become part of your past
Your to strong to let this weaken you
Please never doubt how much I love you
Or what you meant to me
You were the best part of me
If I could ask one last thing
Cremate me and spread my ashes with Scott's
Half in the ocean
Half with my mom and dad
No need for a service
Who needs people faking acting like they going to miss me
It's been four years so my life insurance should be fine
Suicide is covered after two
The papers are in the bottom drawer
Under the cards you have given me
Take the money and spend it without guilt
If possible I'll always be looking down on you

Goodbye my beautiful wife
Thank you for always being my best friend
I love you