Finding Balance

Do you want the complete and honest truth?
I am one step away from losing my calm
And cool composure. Our years of youth
Are slipping away from the palm
Of our hands so I am not going to
Be playing games anymore. I am not going
To show you my one weakness which is you
And nobody else. You should be knowing
Me well enough that my silence
Is easily an answer for you. I cannot
Keep trying anymore. I have to find my balance
First before anything else. I never forgot
You or how you made me feel,
But I am not going to tell you any
Of that, so when you continue to steal
My time and patience I will tell many
Lies by saying I am really okay.
I cannot find a way to be here and stay.