Issa Rant

I tell my parents that they're gonna outlive me
I'm 23
Not suicidal, it's just how I feel
looking at the life I live I'm definitely bound to get killed
I'm not a reckless, nor self destructive
Though I do smoke & drink..
I can maintain myself
I know that won't be the death of me
High blood pressure diagnosed at 13
Doc said I'd be lucky to see 33
I agree...
But I know, that's not how i'ma go
Love, will take my soul
I got a heart too big for my own good
People see that in me and use it for their own good
I don't know how to be selfish
I had a great father so I wasn't raised to be devilish
I love too hard, I trust too easily
I always yell that I don't care about nothing
😐
I care about trees and stray animals in Montana
I live in fuckin Tampa...
I put on a facade to hide that I'm susceptible to manipulate
I live on terms that nobody can relate to
Even Jah be like, "you sure I created you?"
A woman will be cause of my demise
My love is so strong that it makes me sick
Literally..
I'm a sucker for love!
I fiend for commitment!
Constantly craving attachment!
I love, love.
It's wild, because I never experienced it
REAL love, that is
I've been loved for having good dick and weed
I've never been loved for being faithful and honest
I've been cheated on, but loved
I've been lied to, but loved
I've been abandoned, but loved
I've been used, but loved
Get the point?
I'm a vulnerable fuckin mess
It's cause I don't ask for much
I accept too little
I request the minimum
On the contrary,
I believe in that forever shit
Not that marriage shit
That, if you down for me I'm down for you
sacrifice for me I'll do triple for you
if you cheat on me, I might kill you
if you trust me then I trust you
but can't nobody fuck that up but you
keep your intentions pure and we'll last
on that forever shit
SOUNDS NICE
right?...