It's Like an Accident I'm Proud of :)

You know, I'm a little iffy about all this love stuff.
How did I, a relatively objective
positively opinionated
slightly depressed but also kinda not
normally weird
girl
Start to like one of my friends?

Don't get me wrong, he's really nice guy
he's got eyes the colour of gold in the sun
and his laugh is something
I don't know
special.
He makes me smile at the stupidest of things
like I'm in a fucking teen book.

And secretly, I want it to be Twilight
because then he'd be Jacob and never have a shirt on

but that's another story...

The thing is
I never thought I'd be this person.
Staying up 'till one in the morning talking about everything and nothing
little teasing laughs
open ended questions
relaxing in our own little bubble
even when surrounded by friends.

And it feels...nice
It feels right.
And I think maybe I could get used to it.
And maybe I kinda have to.
Besides,


He's said he'll kiss me at lunch!