Robins Death Row

Here I am sitting up at night alone with thoughts racing through my head
Am I good enough, am i happy, or am i better off dead Sometimes I can't control these thoughts that take over my mind
To others they seem so silly, but to me my sanity is on the line
All of these insecurities are driving me insane, the only way to make them stop is to surrender to the pain
I don't know what is wrong with me, I know I'm not ok
People tell me that I'm fine, well isn't that what they always say
Me, I know better, I'm so far from normal
But no one understands that my mind is running it's own carnival
Here I am in the spotlight, spectators all around
Wondering how i will entertain them will the freak laugh, scream, or frown
I am here for their amusement, they came to see a show
Should I release my inner demons do they really want to know
All of a sudden they realize that their answer is NO
They are all screaming to get out but it's too late
You are all getting what you came for now feel the true hate
Men being mauled by demons, children scream in fear
One of my hate filled demons bends down and wipes the child's tear
He smiles his wicked smile at her, I know what comes next
He rips her head completely off her shoulders and grins triumptly at his best
So welcome, welcome one and all to all of my horrid schemes
I hope you all get a good look at what truely haunts my dreams
This is my home, my hell, my personal haven of despair
Oh please, don't even pretend like you care
You better leave while you can, for me it's much too late
Hurry now they are drooling as they watch your hands shake
My demons are hungry for more of your ripe fear
Run don't look back, or they will suck your soul out of your ears
Goodbye you all, thanks for stopping by i said as i shut the door in my mind and began to cry
A part of me wanted them not to go, it gets pretty lonely in my mind, I call it Robins Death Row