i'd be a jellyfish

i started getting
smokey, sleep deprived
hallucinations,
creatures crawling in through
the small triangular window
in the ceiling,
i did nothing and just watched them,
wondering where you had
disappeared to,
wishing irately that you might
lie with me,
instead of constantly leaving
or curling up at my feet.
it hurt my feelings even though
it was stupid to take your actions personally.
my wet shoes were dry enough
after the painful minutes stretched to days
for me to put them back on
and go home.