Behind these closed doors part 2

These cuts, burns and bruises
they heal over time,
but this emotional turmoil
still lingers in my mind.
I look at myself in the mirror
and I wonder how did I get here?
When did that happy loving girl leave?
Misery set in, It befriended me.
Lonely became the only thing I knew.
As I sit back
and I look at the bigger picture.
I then realize all the signs,
they were right there in front of me,
I must have been dumb and blind.
Timid young girl so eager to be loved,
jumped to the first man to show attention.
He knew the state I was in,
He looked for that.
Easily manipulated.
Did what you asked.
When I wasn't at my best
well that's when it was bad.
5 years and 22 days
That's how long it took to leave
7:00 PM
My speech is broken,
I can hardly get the words out.
His eyes open wide.
Mine shut.
I am telling him how I feel.
I am telling him I'm leaving.
Sweat is pouring out of my armpits like a waterfall
It's Over, I'm Done.