If I Left

What if I told you that I was leaving?  
Would you still tell me that you care?  
All I wanted was to be receiving  
Your love and support. You share  
Those words, but it might be too  
Late because you should have told  
Me when I was waiting for you  
Patiently. What would you hold?  
My hand or my heart or your pride?  
You have it all, but you are going  
To miss me when I no longer slide  
Right into your life and was showing  
You how to be loved in all the right  
Ways. I could no longer wait for  
You to tell me to never take flight  
Because you never told me before  
I was thinking of taking off to begin  
With. Darling, I should have never  
Believed you when you tilted my chin  
Up towards yours because the lever  
Was still being pulled and nothing  
Else was happening. I always thought  
You would have told me everything  
Face to face before we ever got caught  
Up in something else, but I was wrong.  
It is a shame that you never will see  
My tears because I am way too strong  
For that to occur. I thought that we  
Would not have to get to this point  
Because I thought this would become  
Something that would not disappoint  
And last a lifetime. I feel too numb  
To feel anything else because the plan  
Fell through and I cared way too much.
You were supposed to be the better man.  
All I needed was a reminder and touch.  
I cared too much and fell in too deep.  
The memories are all I am trying to keep.