Goodbye Cruel World

My first attempt was mediocre if that
I tried the thing from constantine with the cat
Wanted to see if hell was a real
To see if the devil and I could make a deal
Nothing happened and I was quite dissappointed
You might not expect this from a boy who is supposedly annointed
A family with religious ties and a christian back ground
If god is looking down on me, it's most likely with a frown
I haven't done much good in my life why start
There's not much room in this ice cold heart
I have done nothing but break the hearts of women
It always starts off good, but never a fairy tale ending
Then there was the one time that bitch broke mine
It's history, but shit hasn't healed after all this time
Oh well, it won't matter once I'm gone forever
I 'll write a nifty suicide note, "goodbye cruel world", something clever
I've hurt so many people I wonder if anyone will miss me?
Will they wonder why I did it, will they think I took the easy way like a sissy?
I've already made the noose, it's been hidden for awhile now
This will be the best joke, and I'm the clown
I'm only eighteen and I think my life sucks
I used to play chicken with semi trucks
A life full of let downs, emptiness, and heart breaks
I'm fed up with all this bull shit, all my heart does is ache
Shit, my parents are almost home from the ceremony
I gotta get on with my unholy matrimony
No time for my suicide note I guess
This'll have to be do it's best
I'll be right back.........