love is just a fairytale

I will be forever alone
Can´t feel no love that’s why the pain is so strong
Don’t love me cause then I hate you because I don’t like myself
Don’t touch me I am just a man with a troubled Sense of self
You say love me but you don’t know me and you just lie to me, deceiving me or you speak the truth to then leave me
Sometimes I rather be dead cause I feel my existence is wrong don´t tell me I am dead wrong,
The only reason I am not dead is that I want to appear as strong
Some people enjoy to fall in love, I enjoy it as much as falling on my face because it´s a humiliation
Love a word that my heart associates with mutilation
A word to describe my intimacy with another person is segregation
You never will never see how I feel only how I appear because I am a master of deception
Don´t look me in my eyes because I don´t like my reflection
Mirrored in your eyes because you represent the beauty whereas I represent ugly
To me love is just a fairytale like the beauty and the beast, I don’t buy into that cause I am not a dummy