Submissions by real91

I will be forever alone
Can´t feel no love that’s why the pain is so strong
Don’t love me cause then I hate you because I don’t like myself
Don’t touch me I am just a man with a troubled Sense of self
You say love me but you don’t know me and you just lie to me, deceiving me or you speak the truth to then leave me
Sometimes I rather be dead cause I feel my existence is wrong don´t tell me I am dead wrong,
The only reason I am not dead is that I want to appear as strong
Some people enjoy to fall in love, I enjoy it as much as falling on my face because it´s a...

Trough spiritual growth I broke the shell that imprisoned me
Illusions that I perceived as reality
Trapped in an inferior state of consciousness
Identifying with worthlessness
Causing overcompensation
It all started in the mind but realized itself in physical manifestation
In my actions caused by an attempt to flee the pain
Engraved into my brain
the dissonance between what is and what should be
only when I started to accept I could see
the standards which I held against me
a deluded sense of masculinity
giving and receiving love is...

What´s the definition of intimacy?
I guess it´s: “see in to me”
But that will never be
As long as these walls don´t break down
I am confined in an emotional lockdown
I know I have the keys but I cannot open the doors
My ego-the guards are armed with shame, fear and guilt to beat me down with brute force
Until I surrender because it is too hard
But you don´t see the prison you see only a beautiful facade
A face that is masked with a smile to deceive you
I hope one day somebody will see trough
And help me tear down the walls
Letting...

I pay for hookers
Emotional attachment is not affordable
Whats love? And its relationship with feelings of inferiority and unworthiness?
Emotions preventing me from making calculated moves like chess
Is it just that my mind playing tricks on me?
No more exploiting me, fuck a friendship if we don’t have sex you cant hang with me
I am aware that I am chasing an illusion , sex is not satisfying only increasing my confusion
Only life time that I am losing
Fuck society, your are doctors, lawyers and employees but I am a different entity
I am me and I...

I carry the weight like Atlas because I got a chip on my shoulder
Women are sirens mesmerizing with their appearance
How many men did they drag into deep waters?
My ambition of love is a fire that is slowly extinguishing
Sometimes I am reminiscing to the time before I was losing my illusion
of love romance and partnership, a woman with which I could conquer the world
I put all my desperation in a cup and drunk it until my eyes were closed and I fall asleep
In my dream I saw Morpheus I said “sleep is the cousin of death so make me sleep forever because I don´t want...