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Setting Sail to What I am.
Setting sail so early seemed so easy,
dreams about what would be...became,
and when lonely nights swallowed me,
who was truly left to blame?
I feel love is a fleeting emotion,
no matter how hard we try to tame it.
I think that we all opine the notion,
emotionally broke and aimless.
I am a short fuse, ready to blow.
Brought low by the reality of life,
I've lost all my cover and my vices laid to bare,
my dignity out of sight.
One bottle of wine gone?
Is it now two?
It's merely the weapon
I have chosen to use.
So then I feel
lifeless, worthless,
opiods, uppers,
weed and the rest
all to numb the pain of owning our own mess.
Why try to be more when less
is rewarded?
Why try to transcend when
the prize is distorted?
There is no magic way,
no set path.
We all set our sails in some direction, forward mast.
So here I stay in my own solitude
unable to leave this darkened land.
If I can't leave myself then
I am setting sail to what I am.
dreams about what would be...became,
and when lonely nights swallowed me,
who was truly left to blame?
I feel love is a fleeting emotion,
no matter how hard we try to tame it.
I think that we all opine the notion,
emotionally broke and aimless.
I am a short fuse, ready to blow.
Brought low by the reality of life,
I've lost all my cover and my vices laid to bare,
my dignity out of sight.
One bottle of wine gone?
Is it now two?
It's merely the weapon
I have chosen to use.
So then I feel
lifeless, worthless,
opiods, uppers,
weed and the rest
all to numb the pain of owning our own mess.
Why try to be more when less
is rewarded?
Why try to transcend when
the prize is distorted?
There is no magic way,
no set path.
We all set our sails in some direction, forward mast.
So here I stay in my own solitude
unable to leave this darkened land.
If I can't leave myself then
I am setting sail to what I am.
Published 17th May 2017
| Edited 12th Jul 2022
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17th May 2017 4:40pm
You've accomplished tremendous things....
Others may still under estimate you....have they met you? Written with you? Watched you at work? Been in your classes?
Periods of extreme growth are often followed by times that require you to digest what you have passed through. This awkwardness is normal.
I have every reason to believe that you will actualize a synthesized position, work through these fractured pieces, and walk right through this....have patience and resolve....you are re-inventing yourself with your experiences in mind. I have no doubt that this is a natural part of your process.
You got this.
Others may still under estimate you....have they met you? Written with you? Watched you at work? Been in your classes?
Periods of extreme growth are often followed by times that require you to digest what you have passed through. This awkwardness is normal.
I have every reason to believe that you will actualize a synthesized position, work through these fractured pieces, and walk right through this....have patience and resolve....you are re-inventing yourself with your experiences in mind. I have no doubt that this is a natural part of your process.
You got this.
