Happiness in my head

Learned to deal  
with the insanity  
and loss of reality  
I found in my head.  
 
Instead of accepting it,  
I fought it for years  
and long did I wallow  
in depression and fear.  
 
 
I'd swallow  
handfuls of those  
doctor's happy pills,  
colored pearls  
were quite pretty  
but didn't paint me  
a brighter picture  
of the world.  
 
Then a voice in my head  
said to embrace my insane.  
Rage against Love,  
wrap yourself in the pain.  
Beware of force fields,  
avoid shadowless souls,  
barricade windows  
with aluminum foil shields.  
 
Now I'm getting it,  
I'm meeting societal norms.  
No one's suspecting  
I was born  
any different.  
 
 
I've made forever friends  
and I'm happy again!  
They gave me  
a ticket to see  
a movie with them.  
(I heard it was funny)  
I waited all night,  
 
but no one arrived.  
 
That's okay, cause  
I hung out instead  
with the friends  
who are there for me  
inside my head.  
 
Guess that's just  
one of the strange  
kind of perks  
of living the insane  
way of life on this earth.