The Sound of a Breeze

I've been trying all my life,
trying so hard to strive,
when I lost myself in this obsession,
just to always have your attention,
please understand all my sacrifices

why could't you have just done this back home,
today I'm gonna start all over, wish's,
money and dreams where my only problem,
never acting on it left me filled with fear,
doing everything I can to steer,
the direction of a well educated man

today may be beautiful than any other,
packed my bags, filled with tears I try to stand with my head high,
you always wanted something I couldn't be, something has overtaking me

walking through the crowd,
everything usually so loud,
but the silence is all I hear now,
why did it have to end up this way,
caught in a box that you have created,
I was so fixated

always depressed in a world tangled in my head,
please...,
I don't despise what has happen,
teaching me the man I need to become,
you were absolutely irresistible,
so intellectual,
so beautiful,
filled with love,
ambition,
so fearless,
incredibly funny,
and most of all my love

you were my love,
you were my strawberry,
my hint of ecstasy,
you were always by my side trying to guide me,
the frustration, it must have built up inside of you

don't worry I understand,
finding my way through the crowd,
finding my meaning to why I'm here,
waking every morning unsteady,
everything here reminds me of you and why I moved to such a beautiful place

I am no longer moved to drink strong whiskey,
making me feel heavier than ever,
climbing the stairs,
breathing heavy,
wanting to faint,
panting hard,
my heart trying to stay steady,
as I try to grasp for every breath of air

the tears race off my face,
I kneel blinded by the sun,
sweat dripping, trying to understand this feeling,
where has my mind gone to,
this box I must break out of,
screaming in the inside,
speeding in my car yelling at the steering wheel,
I try to breathe

everything goes still..,
the sound of the wind blowing through the wind shield,
very calming and seducing,
I sit for a second,
telling myself to wake up,
JUST WAKE UP

snapping out of this delusion of being so helpless,
taking action feeling light as a feather,
the weight of isolation breaks free of me,
always having someone by my side was exhausting,
its time to take care of me,
rising above the clouds,
I see the signs lifting my pounding heart

my soul,
my mind and body,
things shall be okay,
playing my acoustic,
seeking mercy from the storm,
I am not afraid of losing everything,
my hands are shaking,
the blisters from playing all night

I have nothing left to lose,
I'm burning all the pictures in my head,
the ashes shall fall of rain,
feeling bullet proof from the flames,
burning this agony to make me stronger,
I never want this feeling ever

telling my self I could never fall in love again,
the only thing now besides me my shadow,
watching the sun rearrange,
moving my shadow of the past
 
this is a new life,
the only footsteps I must follow is that of my own,
I thank you for the love you have shown,
I shall embrace that till the end of my days,
but today's a new day,
a better day,
Its a day of re birth,
an awakening,
a day of happiness and filling up the space that has most desperately needed it,
this is my true meaning of love.