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If I Would Just Delete Social Media

I've become so immersed in what you could be thinking of me
even if bad at least you would be thinking of me
I've never understood obsession until now
and I've never been so disgusted with myself
your twitter will be the death of me
if I let it be
why do I let you affect me
so easily
I've relinquished my freedom to your unjustifiable sad boy physique
full of long self loathing critique's
hypocritical tweets
on love
don't we all just want someone to understand
why can't I let you escape my head
or at least stop trying to be in yours
I want to peel my skin off faster than a band aid
feel the burn afterwords as a reminder I've made a mistake
that takes long to heal
takes long to grow back
I could be an addict if I wasn't so afraid to ruin myself
I could be anything you want;

except I couldn't really.

and we both know that.

and I wish I didn't sometimes.