Leave but come back

Forbidding myself daily I still recall
Not wishing to think I think after all
Coming back always after day or two
I want it, thought I never used to

Leave now, I finally managed to forget
To stay here and live, I don't regret
I fought with sadness, killed my pain
I am not the one in your live to stay

I've learned to think that I don't need
All those feelings I've sent on a fleet
Somewhere far away from, out of my soul
Smiled after: "It's time to let it go"

But somewhere hidden really deep inside
My love was protected behind my pride
Getting stronger, preparing to attack
"Forget me, leave now but come back!"