The Man I Had Once Upon A Time

To describe the pain to describe my shame....can't be summed up by exposing my name....he was someone real special for me...I'm the same person I was always was he changed towards me in one hell of a way....I truly believe I never see that day....he saved my life once and I didn't see his flaws of course he could have be bad but he wasn't at all ....he cured my heartache  he gave me my faith and then all in one day he took it away....people around me have changed so much but even though he left I always remember his touch....he has a great mind it's one of a kind he taught me life lessons and music and such ...but he will never be my favorite one he took me and Broken me down one single day he took it away....everything he created for me was a fairytale work he created u see..... Today I saw him as a man not a friend just wish it could have ended just as it began....he was someone I loved someone I trust and someone who never pointed fingers ....he was an artwork from God a true treasure chest he was an outstanding form of God trying to spread out no harm....I'm always going to try to pretend it didn't happen  but I'm driving this life and I know the truth now.....so how am I supposed to breath or smile or show my true love to the next one who comes.....he ruined my perception on the value of life... Bc truley i would have been good wife....I'm almost afraid of the world now u see that the impact he had in the real me....do u think he was a test God way  of saying I'm too good for him or should I truly give in to my heart suffering...amen