Confused Killer

They must pay for their torture
But I cannot hurt my friends
After what they did to me
I must hurt them
I will kill them
No no I cannot
I must take revenge
No I must not
I will watch their
lives leave their eyes
I am not a killer
No one can die
I shoot the first one
I grieve them deeply
Why did I do this
I kill the next in their sleep
I'm not a monster
But yet I am
I must do whats right
I turn myself in