One in the same

He treats his wife like garbage
He hits her when he's mad.
His kids have all abandon him
They hate he is their dad.
He drinks to wipe his memory
It's his only vice.
He's the only person with no room to give advice.
I watch him from a distance
And even hurt him when I felt the need
I want to watch him suffer. I want to see him bleed

I started drinking way to young,
It's all I've ever seen
They all just keep on doing it even when they get too mean
Everybody tells them it's ruining their life
There's nothing they can do to stop it, there's no escape from strife
So we just rot our liver till we throw up blood and shit we ate
Anything we feel, even good, is lost in liquid hate

I used to know the feeling of normality and a sober mind
But once I tried the liquor it was left dragging behind
I still hold on to the greatness of the good I used to feel
All I have is memories of what used to be real
It wasn't a lot, just little things that made me smile
But sometimes when I drink with him they come back for awhile

I hate him more than anyone, all the family does
He can't control his liquor so he drinks until he's numb
I watch him and feel slightly happy cuz he's more depressed than me
Until I drink a little more and smoke till I can't breath
We're miserable together but it still just ain't enough
Well never feel complete without that sickening liquor buzz

Even when we get along, I still can't stand his face
I always hope he follows through when he says he'll leave this place
He has nothing good to say about anything he knows
His demons taunt and follow him anywhere he goes
Forever the talk of shit heads will follow with his name
But who the fuck am I to judge when we're one in the same