Tell me you'll cross oceans for me

I knew you’d never cross oceans for me
Though i’d cross the frozen threshold of hell, cross
The heavens, plunge from eden’s paradise, all for you
I burnt our bridges because that terrified me...
My soul was dancing around your pale fingertips
Though you were not aware, the power your name had over me.
To save you i’d bleed out into your hollow heart, because mine belonged to you.
If your sky colored eyes ever shed a tear, like clouds setting free
melancholy raindrops, slowly tracing your fine alabaster skin, i’d be there
Before your tears left the warm hearth of your cheek, to wipe them away
I wanted to be a wall you could lean against, a river
You could sink into, a flame that would dispel the darkness
But I was a black sun, exuding dark, mournful rays  
I was a shadow that failed to be your light
And i thought your hands fit into mine so perfectly, for you’d always
be the one to pull me back up, from my woeful depths of despair
But now we don’t even speak and all that’s left are old scars
That still ache sometimes when i see you, old friend.
Before i try to save someone else, the wounds i bear must heal
Before i try to hold someone else together, i must piece back my own shattered spirit.
What hurts the most is having so much to say…
Suffocating from all the sorrowed songs i swallowed locking them in a safe
made from bleeding pieces of my forlorn heart refusing to release the river
of unsaid thoughts i had once turned into poems  
You were family, maybe more, not bound by blood but I have loved you
For an eternity, and so too will i continue, until my last waking breath
That's why it hurt so much when you push me away, though i know i was the one
Who pushed you away first. We became the moon and the ocean waves
So far apart, pulling towards each other, never able to overcome the sky between them
I wanted you to stop me from leaving, that's what i’ve always wanted
For someone to stay when i try to soar with frightened wings upon
faint-hearted winds, far away to my own little world
For someone to pierce that somber chamber i’ve trapped myself in for centuries
I had always wished that when i turned my eyes from you and walked away
That you’d grab me by my hand, lace your fingers into mine and tell me
You’d cross more than oceans for me, tell me you won't ever let me go