Life Is a Lie

I wish that I could be a little bit stronger
And that I can hang on for just a bit longer,
But my life is already beginning to slip away.
You promised me that you would never let me stray
Or go under, but you are lying right through
Your mouth and words as usual. My heart is a zoo
And a mess. You say I am losing my mind and that
I am insane. Maybe I am. My pulse has a flat
Line. I cannot live this life where I am living in my
Body and a mind that is unfamiliar. You let me die
Away like a faded rose petal. Your tears are
Fake, rolling down your face. You touched my scar,
But simply did not understand. I was trying hard
To be that girl you wanted me to be. You discard
Me as something you have no longer a use for.
I tried to live as an angel so that I could soar
High above you, but I could no longer pretend
To be amazing and flawless. I was not a godsend,
Taking whatever would make me live in sin.
I hated living in my own flesh and skin.
You were never any better than me, us or them.
Do not pretend like you ever knew where I came from
Because we were from different parts of this world.
You do not know what it is like to be curled
Up into ball late at night because you feel like
You never had a place in this world. One more strike
And this is all done. Let me lay to rest and leave
This world. You will eventually no longer grieve
For me. So I am leaving you with this note
Saying goodbye, a truth shoved down your throat.