I Don't Know...

I don't know...
I don't know why I can't talk to you.
Is it pride?
Pain that is causing me to remain mute...towards you?
I don't know...
I don't know why I can't talk to you.
You were everything to me.
And you just left.
Now when you talk...to you...I'm deaf.
I don't know...
I don't know why I can't talk to you.
I need to know why?
Why is it so hard for me to forgive you,
And let you back in my life?
Why is it so hard to answer your calls?
Why did I give up the fight?
I don't know...
I don't know why I can't talk to you.
I wish things could have been different.
To many lies, to many broken promises that will never mend the bond we once had.
Every nerve in my being is telling me to reach for you.
To tell you, I love you dad.
But I can't.
I don't know...
I don't know why I can't talk to you.
Maybe it's because you weren't there when I needed you most.
Maybe because when I spoke, you never were close.
Maybe because its you who gave up the fight first.
I don't know...
I don't know why I can't talk you.
And it's killing me!
I need you to tell me why!
Because I don't know...