Just a dream

A lover I never had. He appear to me in my dream.  
A kiss I never had.
Yet life been so blissful with him.
A touch I never felt, but my heart pounded every time I thought of him.
A smile I never saw, yet I felt his heard voice.
A scent I never smell and thru his image it seem quite swell. Like any other dream it's gone down the stream.
As time passed like an hour glass slowly my dreams faded away.
Yet not day would go by without me thinking of him.
Sometimes I felt ill and I sworn I would just chill.
Over the hill is my love that doesn't exist.
I wonder if had lost my damn mind like kindergarten. Have I lost my mind in twilight Or is it just a fantasy?
Oh ,the words felt like a string that play my heart!
Felt like a song over and over.
My organs would dance.
Rain would fall of joy.
Invisible laughter fill the room.
Caught in web of feelings that got my inside tangle. Knot in my stomach just thinking I'm fool.
Letters on the wall.
Image in my phone.
Sercets been told.
I have to be anger just to forget about the lover I never had.
Maybe it was a Matrix.
Or maybe just a cross road.
Love is such a dull spell.
Left me misery yet left mysterious.
Damn Am I feeling hysterical?
Cut my umbilical cord from the lover I never had.
Reborn of pain, lost, confusion and hope.
He'd never know how much I felt thru this cell.
I should of been immune and digest the dream.
He is a dream.
Yet seeking waiting to be greeted with a kiss. An open book. My chapter will never close.
My thoughts will remain written
True love haven't been bitten.
A lover I never had. He appear like a dream. Like any other dream it's gone down the stream.
Should I be glad or should I be mad?
I must confess I'm both. A lesson learn. Never yearn too much.
Like a drug feelings come and go. At least he should of be genuine.I felt like a gem. He was my knight.
I thought we could shine together.
Only in my dream he was mines.
Reality is if it haven't came true. A lover I never had will remain a dream. Like any other dream it's gone down the stream
A lover I never had.
I'm glad and mad.