Feces

I did not know how hard this would be
Could you have known how much life, has           been sucked out of me
Slowly over time spiritual murdering
With each nerve struck, it becomes verbal slaughtering  
Every syllable slices my heart into tiny pieces  
then SPAT down my throat, digested & turned into feces
Fuck your love I want to die
You said you care, I think you lie
about how you truly feel  
Talkin out your neck, you can't be for real
When I fuck up you punish me hard  
You have no remorse, my heart stays scared
Worthless I am  
At least when you are my man  
You don't consider me to be your lady  
Instead you don't trust me, when you're the one who is shady
Maybe you are faithful  
So am I, but you are always doubtful
Of everything I do  
No matter how much, I painfully love you