Moment pt.2

You make forgetting look too easy,
moving on look like a breeze.  
It's been 5 years, you're still everything to me  
all I see, is it my sickness  
ill to the point of destruction
the brink of obsession
or is this real? perhaps you truly are
The love of my life.  
I can't possibly hold on tighter  
These ropes grip better than my hands ever did
I was weak in the past; you slipped right through
I've practiced spent nights learning techniques
Your face is beautiful babe but don't look at me
Cloth over your mouth and eyes , THIS IS FOR ALL YOUR LIES  
Squirm and squeal I told you the knots were real  
A weight is lifted as the jug of water empties  
catch your breath, as I refill my hate  
maybe with something stronger this time  
something a little more flammable
I never planned on killing you, but you're just so helpless
and I'm just so hopeless.