Dead but still breathing

I'm alive
But I feel dead
This life
Drains every scrap of energy
My heart feels like it's made of lead
My face constantly contorted semi symmetrically
Inside versus out
Is this all life is about?
Smile shines bright outside
But on the inside
Nothing but agony
Misery
And broken dreams
As for my heart it broke a long time ago it seems
I feel numb
I feel like this is dumb
I feel dead
I am dead
Just still breathing...