Forgiveness to senses

Big, scary and powerful to rule your world
You are always there to do what he told
With all your being you try to satisfy
Yet you can't reach at all, don't know why

He takes it from you and says it's wrong
You bring it back and then for so long
Try to find the right one but yet
He keeps sending away all you can get

"My master, my king, the one who knows!
Why can't I get that? You're so close!
All I give I give with my heart,
But angrier you get, more we're apart!

And says he: "poor one, you must touch
In all you have done I can't see much
Just search with your hand and find it!
You do it all life, by me you're guided!
All I hear from you in nonsense only!
Weird words no one speaks, you're lonely!
'That big shiny thing', 'that nice glow
In the water every day, on and above',
What you're speaking is close to sickness,
In your hand you have nothing but weakness,
You're no good for this world to live
There's only darkness around! Now, leave!"

Head to the ground and you step away
Going to serve right again and again
"What's with me? Am I the one to beat?
What others bring he doesn't even need!"

Tears are making their way down your face
You don't feel them now, that stone lays
So heavy in your heart, and now it's bigger
"Why can't I just pull the damn trigger?"

Powerless you kneel before the river,
You can barely breathe, body's all in shiver
"Why do they all say it? Here's light!
I can't be that wrong, here it shines!"

Trying to touch, spread hands to the water
And scared you jump away. "A monster?"
Your heartbeat is calm and you're back
Pressing hands to heart, you're stuck

In the clean water down there is you
"Yes, I saw it, I wasn't crazy, I knew!"
So, don't be sorry someone you can't satisfy
May be the world around and your God are blind!