Enclosed garden

Ive built a fort up in my tree
Asking these kool cats to let me be
God I cant explain this escaped energy
pulling the particles back to create a better me
I caught a bad case of the feels
Now I wait for this bad energy to heal

Feeling nothing but a loss of connection
Asking my inner goddess for a spell of protection
Numbing myself like a herion addict
Overdosing on loss like a crack fanatic

Damn Buddha, what the fuck
Inner peace is gone, to a man who thought of nothing of me, but a suck

He got me to climb down my tree
Even said he wanted me make up free
Awwww..yea he said that
Made my heart do a pitter pat

I try to think this artistic life is for me
But see artistry and passion are never free
Closing my eyes to the earths vibration
Taking my soul back to my first creation
Where I opened my mouth and let my spirit glide
Jumped off that proverbial cliff, and thought I died
Mother earth caught me, held me till I cried
Bandaged my wounds, till they were scars
Sent me on a cosmic flight amongst the stars

It's been ten years, and my tree grew for my protection
I forgot about this and tried to make a love connection
I dived into an ocean
Opend my legs to a sexual motion

Crawled back to dirt and grass
Feeling like nothing but a piece of ass
Fending off the other men, because they dont know me
They want the U and I, to become a we
But it's too late ive climbed back up my tree

Bleeding and naked
Feeling a bit forsaken
Branches enclose in a soft embrace
Whispering peace as they make their case

You are safe up here in your tree
Tell those cats down there to let you be
Offer your wounds to the universe
Accept the inevitable, flow to the next verse

My new scars start to harden
As I a tentatively step through my enclosed garden.