Mercury Retrogate I

I don't doubt  
your love
I doubt for all
that exist in any way all around
 
I'm not sure
of my breathe
Is it real  
or am I dead?
and by dead, my meaning is profound
 
Did I come
into your life?
Are you a comfortable  
comforting lie
or you arrived to me when you were most needed?
 
Is synchronicity  
a reliable clue?
Do you believe  
that my love is true
or is it our current emotional state being mistreated?
 
I want to cry  
and rip my heart
and write with her blood  
upon my pad
perhaps I 'll see the naked truth over my stanza
 
I want to quit  
trying to align
I'll never be yours,  
you'll never be mine
but then again I always think that's not the answer
 
My sacred rhetorical  
response
is what I fear  
and crave the most
it's what we hide inside the basement of our unconscious
 
You are my paradise  
burned out from gods
I seek of evidence  
of emotional frauds
but then your kiss makes me consider I'm being too cautious
 
May this symbolize  
the end of a season
where we used to
wake for no reason  
may this be our rebirth through love and purity
 
But right now  
this planet slows down
I'm sensing treasures  
waiting to be found
what is required is a clear mind and self maturity
 
Balance in thoughts  
is like a joke
In order to open  
it brakes the lock
and then apologizes to my self for being improper
 
All of my dreams  
weep on the floor
when they hear you  
they ask of you more
your absence is, in my field, a dangerous cropper