I knew you once

Started as just a letter i never planned to send, turned into this. Whatever this is.
 
 
 I knew you once.  
The person you were helped me become who I am.  
I kissed you once.
Each time youd turn to fire in my hands.  Something happened though, something changed the way you smiled. The way you laughed. Something made you run away. Turn to things that dull the pain. Something made you die inside, and took all of your hope away.
I knew you once.
I knew your favorite food, your favorite color and your favorite show. I knew your different laughs and what would bring them out of you and make you glow. I knew your weaknesses and strength, i knew how to press your nerves but chose to stimulate your mind instead. I knew all the things you faked and all the lies you said.  
I still loved you.
I stepped out of comfort for your gain, i'd break my bones for you. I jumped and ran and fell for you, because I thought I knew. I thought i knew what I was doing, but that was far from true. I dove head first and absorbed you entirely, not stopping to ask myself if you, too saw into me.  
I knew you once.
Until i didnt know you at all. Until i realized that what i knew is what you wanted me to see.  
I knew you once, until i looked through lying eyes. Looked and saw the truth hidden behind so many lies. I dont know you anymore, you're just echoes of a dying life. You're just a stranger that I ran to once, to shelter me from inner strife.  
You're just a stranger that I know quite well, that i cant see again. Maybe in another life we could be much better friends. Maybe in another life we wont be strangers to ourselves...  
Maybe in another light we could have changed things in the end. But maybe is just fancy talk for dreams that fail to come true. Just a way for me to put in words that I'm letting go of you. What else is there to do? You no longer know me, and I no longer know the truth. We're strangers to ourselves and to the world. But, at least for a moment, time stopped and helped a boy to love a beautifully strange and fucked up girl.