Internal Screaming

The walls inside my head are thin,
I try to release my screams that I'v kept within,
I murdered all the demons inside but only blood and death are left behind.
I try to stop this endless torture,
I'd do anything to stop this pounding deep within my head,
A boy begging to be let out but he is dead,
A child who grew up to quick,
My memories make me sick.

Reliving pain during the day,
I want to replace this pain with something gay,
But happiness is not something that you gain,
You must kill to have your own way.
I'm tired of playing the perfect child,
I want to please my parents but they're in denial,
They can't accept that I am dead,
They need to forget the boy inside their head.

The walls inside my head are thin,
I keep my screams buried deep within,
I murdered the boy they used to know but I long for silence in this hallow dome.
I try to kill myself to stop the violence,
But there is no silence here there's only riots,
I beg for just a moment of peace,
Kiss me goodbye then please bury me.

Suffering through forgotten pain,
If only happiness could take this pain away,
I wish happiness would come today,
I know I will find waiting there some sunny day.
I am not the perfect son,
Stop acting like we are having fun,
Accept that I need a fucking gun,
To blow my brains out on the walls of this place I don't belong.

I am tired of these chains around my wrists,
I miss the razor blade's deadly kiss,
If only riots were filled with silence,
I wouldn't want to end this internal violence.
My wrist are forever bleeding,
All I can hear is my internal screaming,
If I were to let it out,
It'd be a song and not a shout.