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5: 81: You In Everyman
Excerpt 81 from Journal 5, 'Reaching My True Love'
-from 'Journals To My True Love Part 2'
My Love, I have looked for you everywhere
and never ceased to search...
When I thought I saw you I embellished the
vision to match what I desired...
I knew it was an illusion but I did it anyway...
I needed it to sustain me...
What sustained my has now reached fruition
and is on the verge of an onset of decay...
There will come a time when I will no longer
search for you in everyman, but will accept
that you were a stepping stone that fell away
when I no longer needed it to grant me passage...
I passed over a turbulent river of my youthful
needs and longings with your help...
I saw you in everyman and you came to life in them...
I learned to love them even in the absence of you
by this observance of you in them...
There is a small part of you in everyman, I will
always see that even in resignation...
Yet I will never resign to forget you completely...
You met me there where my dreams came to
life in my written stories where you were so alive...
I inhaled you in both moments of ecstasy and pain...
We both aged together even as we were so far apart...
I felt you changing even as I was at the same time...
Nothing stays the same forever even captured under
a glass vaccum jar to be preserved...
The glass grows dusty and yellowed and the view
of what is inside does too...
I let go of those old things as I see their antiquity
grow and their usefulness fade...
What I needed then is no longer a requirement...
For I have grown into these harsh predicaments
like a tree adapts to adverse conditions...
We all grow and change like a tree does, and the
older tree provides more shade as it grows even
knowing it is in decline...
That shade is the story of us which inspires us and
will live on...
My Love, look inside that glass vaccum jar within yourself
and see me there as I see you...
Hear the silence as my voice is muffled by your
containment of me in this fashion...
Let us commune in this silence and knowing; we
see each other everywhere as within; for our visions are
fixated on each other in everyperson no matter what
outer views we observe...
We are free to love openly even as we feel the ebbing
away of each other; the freedom fuels this love...
The bird still loves what is on the ground even as it flies
endlessly south away from it in preparation for winter...
It has enjoyed what the ground provided it even as its
wings grew stronger in passivity and it remembers that...
You are like an updraft under my wings, My Love, to
enable my flight of freedom from you and the past
you represent as so am I under yours...
-from 'Journals To My True Love Part 2'
My Love, I have looked for you everywhere
and never ceased to search...
When I thought I saw you I embellished the
vision to match what I desired...
I knew it was an illusion but I did it anyway...
I needed it to sustain me...
What sustained my has now reached fruition
and is on the verge of an onset of decay...
There will come a time when I will no longer
search for you in everyman, but will accept
that you were a stepping stone that fell away
when I no longer needed it to grant me passage...
I passed over a turbulent river of my youthful
needs and longings with your help...
I saw you in everyman and you came to life in them...
I learned to love them even in the absence of you
by this observance of you in them...
There is a small part of you in everyman, I will
always see that even in resignation...
Yet I will never resign to forget you completely...
You met me there where my dreams came to
life in my written stories where you were so alive...
I inhaled you in both moments of ecstasy and pain...
We both aged together even as we were so far apart...
I felt you changing even as I was at the same time...
Nothing stays the same forever even captured under
a glass vaccum jar to be preserved...
The glass grows dusty and yellowed and the view
of what is inside does too...
I let go of those old things as I see their antiquity
grow and their usefulness fade...
What I needed then is no longer a requirement...
For I have grown into these harsh predicaments
like a tree adapts to adverse conditions...
We all grow and change like a tree does, and the
older tree provides more shade as it grows even
knowing it is in decline...
That shade is the story of us which inspires us and
will live on...
My Love, look inside that glass vaccum jar within yourself
and see me there as I see you...
Hear the silence as my voice is muffled by your
containment of me in this fashion...
Let us commune in this silence and knowing; we
see each other everywhere as within; for our visions are
fixated on each other in everyperson no matter what
outer views we observe...
We are free to love openly even as we feel the ebbing
away of each other; the freedom fuels this love...
The bird still loves what is on the ground even as it flies
endlessly south away from it in preparation for winter...
It has enjoyed what the ground provided it even as its
wings grew stronger in passivity and it remembers that...
You are like an updraft under my wings, My Love, to
enable my flight of freedom from you and the past
you represent as so am I under yours...
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