Once upon a time

Let me disappear into the silence of the tombs
Let me to sink into the silence of night

Instead of trying to fly with these broken wings lets just fall with this lifeless body
This body covered in scars and burns

Once upon of time i was innocent
Once upon a time i was an angel
One filled with the purest of light
One filled with happiness, joy, love

..........But......Now...
There's nothing but darkness
The darkest of emotions
With the sickest of addictions
With the darkest of addictions

You caused me to fall from grace
You tried to break me and bend me to your will
Destroying the light i once had
Gone forever is my innocents

Once upon a time i was to frightened to pick up a blade
Once upon a time i was to "scared" to press one to my skin

But in that same dark and twisted up story i ended up picking it up and slicing it through my skin allowing it to spill my blood

I ONCE UPON A TIME watched as i bled

You wanted nothing but perfection all that i'm not
You broke my halo
You broke no you shattered my innocents

Awakening the darkness within
Awakening a need for vengeance
A need to see blood dripping

You kept pushing
You kept threatening ripping destroying

You pretended to care
You pretended to be loving
But in reality it was all just a pretty little fantasy
One you soon shattered

You verbally abused me
You screamed at me
you blame all of your life on me
You look at me see the terrible child
Your failure of a daughter
Your daughter that fails at being a big sister

Yet..... why is it you force me to play the role of monster destroyer
And......You
You bitch piece of shit play the part of victim it was never about me it was always about you!!!!

You saw cuts your only thoughts were what will people think
Your only thoughts were what if they take her away from me
What if they take her away from me and take her little sister away as well

Your destroying my life and have destroyed other aspects of it all because you decide to play victim and me the villain in this fucked up fairy tale and for that i hate you

I hope you rot in hell
I hope you die in some of the worst ways imaginable for the pain you've caused me

You once called me "a lazy piece of shit, A stupid Bitch"
Yet......you wonder why i meet you with all the rage of the devil
With all the cold of winter
With the little warmth of a fire flickering

Now every time you speak i just wanna take  a knife and cut out your tongue!!!!
Every time you speak little by little i begin to lose my sanity and find myself sinking into the very lands of torture where murder is a right and not a crime

Every time you try to force your will upon me or yell and scream even threaten i dont feel fear i don't feel anything but anger rage and hatred i get the urge to rip you apart limb by limb and stab you with multiple knives

You threaten my future
You chain me to you only by age

You try to break shatter and destroy you say i don't know when to shut my mouth but i ask you why the fuck should i isn't about time you get what's coming to you
Isn't it about time you get a little taste of your own medicine i mean you get to say whatever you want without consequences shouldn't i get that same right

Oh yeah to you i'm nothing to you i'm not your equal despite the fact i was born of your own flesh and blood
To you i will never be your equal

But because of your inability to be fair to give me the same magic rights you give my step dad you gave him the role of dictator you pushed me into the role of villain of demon of devil of monster
And......the role you gave yourself was and is to always play victim you make me want to do the most sickest cruel torturous things to you and to others i hate you for this

And no i will never forgive you because you don't deserve my forgiveness i hope you die and rot in hell for the pain you've caused for the fake roles you played and continue to play and the ones you've assigned

Now in order to keep this demon called rage locked away i crave pain and blades going through my skin because of you