Sudden realization

Can't believe how far I've come,
Down and up and down some more
What for
Only days to come
Will tell
I feel like I'm in hell
Almost hear the tolling of the bells
Been here before
Will be again
But those times in between are for
Making the most of them
Those rare moments of sanity
Sometimes even beauty
Must be cherished
And I just realized that as of right now
All I want is someone who truly understands
Be it friend, lover
Or total stranger
That the sound of madness has always been silence
And the only way to cure those affected is
To break the silence,
Talk to people,
Open up,
Let them know how you feel, and keep up
The trust that is friendship