Secret.. Or is it?

If only, if only
I could change my ways
If only, if only
I could look from your gaze

You rent so much space
In this thing they call my mind
I wish you could know
It would've saved so much time

Torture has nothing on your words
One day I can't stand you
The next I can't stand not to see you
If only things had been different

Do I say to much to you
Or not enough
One day we'll know
What it feels like to be wanted
Maybe then I won't feel haunted

What are we scared of
We've seen a lot
What are we afraid of
Getting caught?