how thoughts wonder

I’m shaking heart breaking immortal sin
No explanations for the plight I’m in
Does God forsake me for the truth I bend?
Or does He forgive me for the test I’m failing in

Judge me not fellow men for my selfish inclinations
I’ve tried drowning out the flame but it ignites my sensations
On one knee I bow to those who resist temptations
Must the future hold such mystery, gaping holes imperfections

The what if and possibly override my mind
Am I blinded or seeing for the first time
I no longer rely on my suspected rationalities to show me the right signs
Most would judge and claim I’m acting out of line

So sitting and waiting is the power of the human being
Will these thoughts subside or continue feeding
Is it I’m clouded by my mind’s eye bleeding?
The unknown stands true clueless to my future ending