Feelings

When we first met, I was in awe of her beauty    
a beautiful redbone with hair colored black & curly    
inconspicuously hidden underneath her soft leather jacket and fitted blue jeans    
she was paradise tranquil and serene      
slender in built but with a thick ass & tits like Draya    
she wanted no commitments, I said me either    
     
I plunged deep into warm affections, love soared to new heights    
I hid my emotions, secretly sustaining in her delights    
she felt like warm caramel, tasted like sweet & salty butter    
desperately I tried to keep my feelings bonded within    
fear and excitement became twins named a gift and a curse    
I wrote letters reading them out loud saying rehearse rehearse    
     
Sitting next to me, baby I said, I would like to tell you something      
her expression was a perplexed one asking, what is it hun?      
nervous as heck I said it's not easy talking about my feelings    
I was pouring my heart out, the words flowed effortlessly    
I could feel my heart racing, my shoulders raised tight    
heart felt words jabbing, connecting like Ali on fight night    
     
All of a sudden I could not feel her presence next to me    
the warmth radiating from her mulatto body left the vicinity      
you still here I asked. "Oh you still talking about feelings"    
her voice sounded faint and distant as if attempting to flee    
I slowly turned towards this fine beauty "wow" feeling shocked    
are you climbing out the window?      
she looked stoned faced while replying "No".    
     
the sun brightened the room by the lifting of the bamboo shades    
her knee raised, her hands bracing the window giving me an      
uncaring stare, her unwavering words ensued      
     
"I just wanted to kick it and fuck, if you can't handle that then deuces"    
in my vulnerability she kicked the chair from right under me    
I felt the noose tightening, I felt the life being squeeze out of me      
Ain't this a bitch I thought to myself. Man! I shouted, fuck feelings    
     
Feelings, wow wow wow feelings