I loved you

Can't fight this feeling
So worthless and bleak
Meaningless and forgotten
That's how I feel
In the pits of my guts
Nothing left to trust
Relentless motions of guilt
yet I've done nothing
Nothing but love you
try to please you
Understand what it is you need
But I found myself lost Inside
emotions that spin webs
Cold without a hand to touch
Distant and twisted
Like everything is my fault
But I did nothing
This guilt I hold in me
Is not mine I plea to you
To take it back
The blames you put on top of me
blackness that was poured inside
You've hidden deep away
So you can teach me the lack of love
Winter snow has filled my skin
Nothing feels left within
Frozen in pain
Lost in emotional games
waiting for you to take back that seed of  hate
That you planted inside my mind ...